VanLy

LiFe

2009-07-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be – a roommate, a neighbor, a professor, a friend, a lover, or even a complete stranger – but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.

Sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.

Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are sometimes the most important ones.

If someone loves you, give love back to them in whatever way you can, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and listen to what they have to say.

Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make anything you wish of your life. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.

And if you love someone tell them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.

Learn a lesson in life each day that you live!

Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday.

Think About it? Was it worth it?

I have learned…

2009-07-02T06:58:00.000-07:00

I’ve learned-
that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.

I’ve learned-
that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I’ve learned-
that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I’ve learned-
that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.

I’ve learned-
that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned-
that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.

I’ve learned-
that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned-
that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned-
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I’ve learned-
that you can keep going long after you can’t.

I’ve learned-
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned-
that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I’ve learned-
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I’ve learned-
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I’ve learned-
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I’ve learned-
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned-
that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned-
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I’ve learned-
that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned-
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned-
that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.

I’ve learned-
that your family won’t always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological.

I’ve learned-
that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned-
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned-
that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.

I’ve learned-
that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned-
that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I’ve learned-
that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I’ve learned-
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.

I’ve learned-
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned-
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned-
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

I’ve learned-
that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings, and standing up for what you believe.

I’ve learned-
that people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

LOst Of CoNfiDenCe

2009-06-29T02:40:00.000-07:00

TodaY...I HAve the woRst Dream..ARgh..i x believe This Fairytale...huhu...too Worst...
i lost my confidence...lost of trusted...lost in real world...where I am...iS it i cAn Wkup witH my Own feet?
oh god...plz....show me the shining Way...

My wAR iS oVER...iM sTiLL ALiVe...YuH

2009-05-04T03:16:00.000-07:00

Im Still aLive...YeaH....finalLY mY BachElor dEgREE For MechanIcal EnginEering jUst over....Im Still Breathing.....Thanks God...Coz U Save me and SHow Me tHe ShiniNg Way To Face Dis New RealiTy.....AnyWay...ThanKs Also To My BelOVed Family....My GirlFriend (Kelly) and Also To My Friends..(PanjAng Klo MO LIst NAma Kamu SUma NI)...yEs....Now FocUS To My Thesis BinDing...SUcks....too Expensive...i nEed To Bind 4 Books...Woa LAo Eh....

MY LAst Test Paper In DeGree

2009-04-07T07:20:00.000-07:00

HUh......it seems to Be Happy Coz I Just FinIsh My Last Test Paper For Degree...
SUre I Will Miss To Test Again...My Last Test IS "Advance MachiNinG"
tq Mr Siva..Good JOb....Honestly, u already done ur job...tq coz teach me about Advance Machining...1 year ago also u alreday teach me about Manufacturing...i will use that all at my new life...yeah...now will looking to my final exam paper and final Year Project...huhu...
less than 1 month, i will face the new reality..
i know there's more challenge life out there..
must focused my new reality..
huhu..
will blog again ASAP..
wait yaaaaaaa
going dinner 1st
ahakzzzzzzz

JUst TrYIng

2009-04-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

Kaamatan & Gawai Festival UTHM

2009-04-01T10:31:00.000-07:00

For the first time in history,UTHM will organized the Kaamatan & Gawai festival..
i know, the student UTHM out there already wait this event
speacially for sabahan and sarawak event
this event actually to promote the culture in sabah n sarawak such as ethnic dance..
so, u all are invited to join us
Please support this event...

Tq

FinAL YeAr ProJEct (FYP) VS IndUsTriAl TraiNIng

2009-03-21T04:12:00.000-07:00

For THis Few Weeks, I wILl BE SUper Damn BusY..
MY Psm Need TO Complete bEfore STudy Week....
NEed To Present AFter That...
ARgh...
The ReasOn IS ...
My LazyyNEss is COme DurinG THis TIme....
HOpe I Can Finish Before ComINg MOnday...
MY IndustRial TraiNIng...stIll No REspoND...
IM StIll Keep WorKIng On That anD Follow The NEws...
MY Hp CredIt FinIsh JUst TO Call The COmpanY...
UHKI from UNivErsity IS SUper Damn SHit...
too Slow To dO LL THings...
hOPe I Can GEt The ComPAny B4 i finISh herE...
OR lord...Plz give Me strength ANd SHow ME THe TrutH wAY...
AMen

Dont Change The World

2009-03-01T08:06:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time, there was a king who ruled a prosperous country. One day, he went for a trip to some distant areas of his country. When he was back to his palace, he complained that his feet were very painful, because it was the first time that he went for such a long trip, and the road that he went through was very rough and stony. He then ordered his people to cover every road of the entire country with leather.

Definitely, this would need thousands of cows’ skin, and would cost a huge amount of money. Then one of his wise servants dared himself to tell the king, “Why do you have to spend that unnecessary amount of money? Why don’t you just cut a little piece of leather to cover your feet?”

The king was surprised, but he later agreed to his suggestion, to make a “shoe” for himself.

Moral of the Story:
There is actually a valuable lesson of life in this story: to make this world a happy place to live, you better change yourself - your heart; and not the world.

Source : http://topmoralstories.blogspot.com/2009/02/dont-change-world.html

InTerNet ConnectIon To Slow...

2009-02-21T09:26:00.000-08:00

Im Really Bored For the WHole Day..Cant On9...Line To SLow...
So i Just STick To My Psm Even i wAnt SEnd My assigment To My Friend ALso Cant.
HuHU..>So Pity...
I Need Sleep Now...
Hope Everything Ok For Tomorrow..
i Want On9 As uSuall....
NItez...

Location : Sunway Pyramid...

Final Year Project ( FYP)

2009-02-19T07:30:00.000-08:00

Holiday Mood Laready Over....Now is Concern to My Final Year Project...Will continue this task and present it b4 i leave this my university study...
hope everything will go smoothly...
god...
give me the strength to this challenge...Amen...

DRagon Ball EvoLution...

2009-02-19T06:58:00.000-08:00

yes...
the Legend CoMes To LIfe....
DRagon Ball Will COme Out as A MOvie....expected on April...
thats a movie which is adapted from comic...
its a good comic...i love it...
still remember when im was a kid, i read all the comic book about dragon ball
i will book either from the book shop or order directly from the company...
if im not mistake, the writer of that book is Akira Toriyama...congratulation to him
i cant wait it anymore...
argh..
i know....there is a big fan of dragon ball out there...hehehe...

SOn GOku

GUesss.....Goku And Bulma...
nice rite

2009-02-08T04:20:00.000-08:00

SinGapore CiTY GaLLeRy...

RePLiCa Of SinGapore BehiNd Me

WoRld GlOBe

PLaN Of SinGapoRE BuiLDinG

SinGapoRe Trip...

2009-02-07T22:21:00.000-08:00

Today Im STill Tired.....juSt BecaUse WalKed ArouNd Sentosa Island, Singapore.Beside That, im also Have Been Arab Street....MerliOn And SIngapORe Gallery...Singapore Is sO NIce And Good People...SomeMore The SinGaporean PeOple IS FriendLy And Open...i Will UplOad My Pic Trip Later...Wiat And c Ya...

SIngapORe !!!!..I Come....

2009-02-06T04:11:00.000-08:00

2moro, I will Gng To Singapore..YEs....This IS the 2Nd tym Be There...The Main ThinG IS "SenTosa Island"....Ill gng there BY UThm Agent....JUst Pay RM90 For 1 day Trip..Its Quite Cheap Than Gng There By self....1st Tym went there, i x have much time to spent mY MOney At Sentosa Island...FinallY...I Go There 2MOro...YEs...

RoGer vS Nadal...

2009-02-04T06:55:00.000-08:00

Last SUnday....i Have Watch the Match Between Roger And Nadal....ReallY Nice And FanTasTic....Even Roger LOse To Nadal....But That Is a HistORy Match BEtween The LegGenD Roger And ArrIval NadaL....I'Ve Been SO ToUch When RogeR wAs Cried In FronT of HIs ThoUsand Fans In StaDiUm...HUHu...I KNow..RoGEr Is STill Can Be NO 1 Player SooN...WaiT And c....TiME Will ProOVe....

HolIdaY HappIness...

2009-01-22T18:54:00.000-08:00

Below Is SOme Pic WhiCh Is tAken On Last DecemBer HoliDay DurinG My CouSin EngagemEnt Day...x Touch Up N iTs OriGInal Photo...hehehe...

StarRiNg At Me

NabiaH...Nice .....

HaFiz....

Dec HoliDay

2009-01-05T08:10:00.000-08:00

2009 Dec holiday is nice for me...too many things happen..ahaks....below is a pic the memory of 2009 Dec Holiday...ive attend my 1st Cousin Engagement day and 2 of my other Cousins Wedding day...hehehe..to many events....

THe Engagement rinG....

My 1St CoUsiN...

My Cousin n Her Fiance

hOnestLy This ChoclAir DecoRation Made By MySelF..hehe..

HUhu..All this Pic Taken By Myself..AhAkS....

finally...Im baCk ..

2008-11-25T22:17:00.000-08:00

yes...later 6.20pm..im gng bck..cant wait ....yay...haha...to all my friends....yeha.. i come....Lets BerDannsa....hehhe...wel...tough semester during this 6 month..anywy..thanks god coz gv me fully strength n show Me D Way...bye....cont Later...

FiNal Year PrOjeCt 1 (FYP1)

2008-11-23T23:54:00.000-08:00

2day around 10.30am, i had presenT My FYP 1...no thing to comment from My Panel....SO LUckY..Juz Gv Some SUggestion,view or opinion aBouT mY ProJect...Thanks God Coz Gv Me StrenGth To THroUgh All Of This...Now...new Era come To LIfe..FYP 2...But WiLl Do It Nex SEm...Its HolIday baBeh...Hahehehehe....Well..Now Feel realY Boring..HahA....when Gt asgMnt...wao Lao eh...so Bz...Now then BoriNg...Thats a STudenT lIfe...k La...COnT Later..

LiFe AFt ExaM...

2008-11-21T22:52:00.000-08:00

HUhHU...so BorinG lAtely..JUst Stay AT Houz...I JusT RealIze SUmtym wroNg Hapen In THis HoUz...Yeah..Life Aft Exam...Hehehe...erm...
To ManY ExPreSsioN aft ThroUGh The TOuGH eXam Act...FRUST,Happy,HARDWORKING,GOSSIP GUY, BZ BODY GUY AND bORING....HAHHAA....WEL...DATS NOT mY bIZ ok....ITS U NOT MINE k...haha
"apa ko rasa? oren?"...haha...or in other word...Boleh bah kalau kau...hahaha...then Y U related My life In This c2atIon?hahaha..its my biz la....u u...i i...i kno what im gonna do....not u....hehe..well...Kerana MulUt BadaN BinaSa org Bilang Kan....hehe...
k la...to Be ConT 2nIte...WaIt r...ehhehe

The Next HUrDle...

2008-11-21T09:32:00.000-08:00

Next Monday...mY LasT Hurdle B4 Holiday...thats a Psm..YEs..Psm@thesis...
aft dat Ill Bck To saBah..HolIday Till Xmas....D Dif is....My Parents wIll Move to LD agn..Transfer Agn...argh..in this 3 years...always transfer in 3 dif place...Ld-kimanis-pitas and agn Ld..wao lao eh....wel...Cari Makan Punya Pasal....Just Move for job hehehehe...
erm....now is 22 nov...feel boring aft struggle for my last 2 paper...so crazy......the no im really week..what i know is jhust sleep for the whole day...hehhe...well....nothing to update here agn...mb will update later few hours...x stiry for this while...hehehe
c ya...

2 Paper down....2 more later...

2008-11-11T11:19:00.000-08:00

FUh....just 2 paper...then my presentation thesis will be begin...declared war for now..argh....

My WeaKness Week...

2008-11-07T12:18:00.000-08:00

This week start for my final Exam...last thursday is the 1st paper ----.FIniTe ElemEnT Method...argh....Duno Can Pass Or Not...Now is SeetINg Up My Thesis Report 1...edit till crazy...later tuesday ive Paper again..----->Rapid Prototype...huhu...B4 dat,,on monday will sub,it my Thesis 1 report...argh..so tough....wel...wish me luck k...

Internal Flame.....Taken by mYslef during blackout....

Bandung..Tangkuban Perahu...

2008-11-02T22:08:00.000-08:00

Bandung...the nice place to relax...with the fresh air and the culture, u will satisfy with that.. Yeah...Bandung located at Indonesia..that's a nice place to visit..
below is shown my Few pic which is located at Tangkuban Perahu...For Ur Inforation, Tangkuban Perahu is a Volcano....hehe..nice to bath mUd i thought....

LosIng Grip....

2008-11-02T07:57:00.000-08:00

HUhUh.... This Few Days, i waste My StuDY WeeK WiTh NothINg..My eXam Just AroUnd The CorNer...HUh.....Im Losing......wao LAo Eh....WakEUp Vanjoy...U MUst WakEup.....
ArGh....Im LosiNG My GriP...DonT KNow WHat HappenD aCt..Even StuDY 1O0x THaN As Usual stiiL CanT FocUs AnD CatcH Up My StuDIEs....Die Meat THis TIme...

Human Rights

2008-11-01T00:43:00.001-07:00

Nowadays, human rights is being to be forget. Not all the people know's about their rights. Act since we are born to this world, we have a right in anything. Every move, nationality, race and including life protected by human rights. YEah....we have a right to live....Life must be go on..... below is the human rights which is taken from www.youthforhumanrights.org

1.We are all born free and equal
2.Dont discriminate
3.The right to life
4.No slavery
5.No torture
6.We have rights no matter where you go
7.We are equal before the law
8.Your human right protected by law
9.No unfair detainment
10.The right to trial
11.We're always innocent till proven guilty
12.The right to privacy
13.Freedom to move
14.The right to seek a safe place to live
15.Right to a nationality
16.Marriage and family
17.The right to your own things
18.Freedom of thought
19.Freedom of expression
20.Right to public assembly
21.The right to democracy
22.Social security
23.Worker's right
24.The right to play
25.Food and shelter for all
26.The right to education
27.Copyright
28.A fair and free world
29.Responsibility
30.No one can take away your human rights

if u want watch the video, just go to youtube...just type "youth for human right"
then u can find 30 human rights there....
enjoy the clip....

HuHu...My MuM IS A Great.....

2008-10-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

ToDay...Ive Read My Bro BLoG..HE HaS TOld D StoRy AbOUt My MUm...YEs....My Mum Is D BeSt WheN In CooKing....Yeah>..LAst 14 SePt....She CooKEd FoR MooNCaKE FestiVaL...EveN IM X There..Bt Im KNow She IS ThE GreaTesT In CooKinG
U wana C That Pic...c BelOw.....All D PIc HaS Been Grab FRom My BrO Blog...
Dun AnGry...ehhehe

---------------SteaM ChIcKeN......................

.......................AyaM MasaK KiCap.........

FoR MoRe InForMation...JUz EnRolD To mY BRo BLog....http://raymondchinphotography.blogspot.com/...

PuNctUre

2008-10-29T12:31:00.000-07:00

LaSt 18 Oct, iTS a Bad Day for Me....the mOtOr I Bike PuNcTuRE at the road side...
ciz...then i move it to The MoTorCyCle WoRkShoP to Fix it..i Spent Rm57 to Change The TubE And Tyre..What The Day!!!!!!!!!!!
Argh....
BelOw IS A Pic THat Fab Taken duRing AT The WoRKshOP...
HUhUhU...I KNo..Sum1 WaS Smile FroM This....

HapPy DiwaLi

2008-10-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

HappY DiwalI 2 my fren espeacialy to Thebanraj n Yogeswaren..all not forget 4 those celebrating this season....Happy HolIday N MAy GoD Blez U Owez...

SteaMBoat...

2008-10-27T03:30:00.000-07:00

Last Day....i hAd Dinner Wif My Fren...SteamBoat...Rm20 per Pax..
Below is The MoMent Of Our DinNer..
Location : Batu Pahat

ChuRch OuTInG...---------> Malacca

2008-10-26T01:18:00.000-07:00

Above Pic Taken By My seLf N My Gf
LoCation : MallacA

HapPy NevEr End...

2008-10-25T11:55:00.000-07:00

Nw..26 oct...3.38am..jz bck frm DrinK miLo N eat RoTi KosoNg...Ha3..wel....we meet HerE AGaiN...LonG Time Not write (UPdate) Dis BloG....To ManY WOrks To Do..Even Gt Tym...Bt Im A Bit Lazy To WriTE act....Ha3...Well....Time Passed To Fast..2Dy...i FeeL Sad...ConDeleNce To My KaZEn Edwin & FamiLy....I Jz kNow BouT His Dad (PapaNG) is GOne..May He WIll Rest In PEace..(Amen)...whaT i know is his Dad Very nIce PErsoN......HardWorkINg ....i StIll RemeMber When CeleBrate Xmas WIth THem..That Time Very MeMorabLe 4 me...EdwiN Is LIke My Bro..Same Age..He Just Older few MonTh THan me.... NOw...TalkED Bout MY Thesis 1...wahahhahaa 1 more WeeK B4 I Pass up My TecHnIcal PapaER tO MY PAnel...few....HavenT FiniSH Yet...Still GT mANy THings To Update in There....This Is My lAS 2 Sem AT THis Univ...argh...NveR RealizeD Aft ToO ManY MeoMry GOiNG THroUGH In MY LIfe... i Must FiNished MY Thesis 1 Papaer This Week...Must!!! WilL Be ConT.....

This Pic TakEn At BuKIt BInTAng,.....TaKEn BY My Gf....KEllY....Miz U...

AnGel's Wings

2008-08-01T07:01:00.000-07:00

HuHU..... I'm listening to my favorite album from Westlife 'Coast to Coast' and I feel like crying...huhuhuhu....coz there are many memories of my teenage school life back then...when I was 13-15 years old...hahhaa...and you wonder what I was going through?..hrm...it's a story way long long back then...nothing really happened in action but in the heart...everything in the music tells the story...you can say that the whole albums speaks it all for me?!...the whole feeling and all...but then again as I said, nothing actually happened...even though it was there and it could have almost happened...hrm...maybe it wasn't meant to be...yah...I guess...but I still love the songs...they are just my all time favorite...but it makes me sad at the same time too...huhu...I just wish I could express these songs to someone whom I can really relate them to...it could have been that someone back then....but I guess it was just a waste that it didn't managed to happen...it was just wasted away...and there is no turning back to it...

lil that you may realize that the expressions are as if a person is so crazy in love with someone...whoa...hohoho...yah...exactly?!...and how my heart could be so serious towards a person and what a thrill it was to fall in love...and it's like your on cloud9?!..haha...and question may be...is that person worth it?!...your love and craziness?!..haha..yah...I wonder sometimes myself too...hrm..sigh...that is like so history now ... but how I wish there is always second chances...just to see how things would turn out?..haha...nothing is impossible!..just heard it from the westlife song...haha...telling me that?!..haha...funny..it is like I know the song is talking to me..and I connect to their songs you know?!..like they know how I feel and how I think?!..whoa...hahha..Irish dudes...hrm... it's just all in my head...hehe..self 'siok'ness only it seems...sad...sad... oh westlife....dudes?!..pls take me away!?!?!?!!?!?....into your love cloud?!..hahaha...ape la me neh?!.really feel like asking them to take me into Angel's Wings?! haaha...i miss this feeling...need a hug actually...hahha... take care there yah.......

SeeMs Like I mizz Sum1

2008-07-31T11:18:00.000-07:00

Its Time To WriTE My Story aGn....Im starTed My LIfe Wif BeauTy SOng...."KerNa Ku SayaNg KamU" by DygTa....Oh...sO Nice....NOw is 2.24am..Im write dis Blog juz for Fun...No IdeA acT...This Few WeeKS im SO weak..No 1 unDerstaNd act...Or Mb Im d 1 not UndeRstaNd wiTh my LIfe..DIs Life SO Crazy i Tot...Yeah..OH...I Miz...d 1 i Miz NOt here...Not Beside Me rIte Now...My InsInct TolD That No NeeD tO ThinK aBout It agn...Juz bring my sElF to rEal lIfe..Dont BrinG in2 TroUble...1 MonTh In Dis earLy semester...Too ManY Things wAs Hapen To me...i CanT cOunt....EveN iTs Too HUrt..But mY LIFE MuSt Go On...i kNow..There is SUmtg I doNt knOw WiLl Be HappeN...arGh....NIteZ......WiSh U lUck WiTh Ur lIfe..

WakE Up..

2008-07-20T16:51:00.001-07:00

Today is 7.15am..just wkep bcoz sum1 sms me..argh....that's is not her..i dont know how to face my life act...fact is fate..i cant to change it even though i think can change it...im a diffrent person now...flying without wings..still hope my life still the same like usual....song "Sadis" by Afgan make me realize that im not alone in this world....i must face my life..life must go on..time goes by..i know.....there is sumtng frm it....what im gonna do is still hope....

i think....i should to stop now...i wish....sum1 i need the most happy ending wif her life.....

Confusion...Lost again....must keep focused here...what's wrong?

2008-05-06T07:06:00.000-07:00

Hahaha..here we go again with another ranting of miserable me... well, not exactly actually..just wanting to babble about nothing much of the importance of bothering to listen and read anyway...im just to be ignored sometimes..haha

well, u see...confused because...there's just something going on and i don't really know how to react sometimes...something unusual...bold and yet exciting you can say for me...and it's just something i wished i could just try out and experiment...but playing is always not really that of a small matter if it can hurt and responsibility is always there. you always have to take responsibility for your own actions...and therefore... im just concern and confused...maybe it's deciding on something that i must do...discipline mys

elf to control my feelings and to be serious about the consequences of my actions...(im only talking about things that only i would understand...so forget it if you are trying to understand me and know what's going on...coz it's frustrating to figure something that is not that clear in your mind and yet want to find out?!..no one's asking you to be nosy btw?!)

Lost because im not that sure...if it's right or

not...time will tell...time will only tell...common enough?...does the chemistry match?...hrm..what's that molecule called again?...phenol something?...phenolphenalftelein????...hahhahaa..i totally lost it?..forgot what's it called...but somehow?...i just don't really know how it happened?...hrm..im lost with words and lost with ideas...lost with solutions...i m just LOST???!!!...hrm...just have to wait and see..what time will tell me...maybe it's just another fairy tale i suppose... another fantasy...or maybe time will tell...maybe someone will still be waiting or maybe someone will move one...only time will tell. but the question is...is it ever too late by then?...or does chance only comes once

? i really don't know...questions always fills my mind...

Staying focused...yah..there are so many things to stay focus in...so many commitments...so many task to do and duties to fulfill ... the burden is sometimes there...sometimes you just do things out of voluntary service..knowing that you'd just be the one to bring blessings...but sometimes it's just that you wanna show something and give good impressions...sometimes you just dont want to be irresponsible and you wana show that you wont let others down...why?...you just got to be reliable...working und
er pressure sometimes can really tire you.. i just wish i had better time management...hrm...taking a break from it all sometimes gets to you when it bothers you in the middle of it...or maybe it's because you just leave the job hanging around...yah..i really didnt means to but it just had to happen...i just needed a break?!!!! dont you see..i need a break from all the stress that's been happening in my life..sometimes i just wish people who talks to me..text me..or just asks me questions would tell me what's going on and be more frank with me... why do they have to just ask n if i give them short replies..they just said nvm..forget it..you know that curiosity kills the cat..well...i may not be a cat but still curiosity just kills me coz i hate guessing and forgetting
about it kind of thingy...you know this just frustrates me ...i just can't stand laziness smts and blurness so as slowness in reactions?!...smtym im just rushing for time and i dont have much time to wait...i may sometimes be a very impatient person..im always on the go when things get hectic for me...you know who you are...im talking about you...!.i just wished i dont have to ignore my frens and hurt their feelings inside..im not someone who does not care...coz i do care?!..im sensitive as well...n if you think im arrogant well...im just sorry it happened to you...hrm...im just tired...need a break...wished i didnt have to worry so much about this..ive got enough things going in my mind...

what's wrong has been added above...

i wish i had the answers to my questions...all that is happening in my mind...i just wished i knew...hrm...let's just leave it to time ... i love all those who loves God...because God loves all His children...for only those who acknowledge Jesus Christ as Son of God...no one goes to the Father except through Him...no one seems to take Him seriously..how foolish...i just want to see what happens next...take care...